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My baby girl Goblin died suddenly on August 2nd. She was 12 years old. The day started out normal, but by 2pm she was gone. Our vet said a tumour on her liver ruptured. It was inoperable. She didn't wake from surgery.

I miss her so badly. Goblin was the sunshine in our lives. We're half-dead without her. The house is so quiet. All the songs we sang revolved around her. Getting up in the morning was to go for a walk with her. Coming home was to be with her. The comfort at night were the little sounds of contentment she made while sleeping. Goblin was our happiness and hope. Every morning she'd come & wake me. Her last evening we danced to Kami's favourite goth songs. Life with Goblin was so fun & happy. Goblin was our world. Our heart.

It's all gone. This year. So many bad things have happened. It's just wrong.


Goblin on her bed in my study.
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My baby girl died suddenly on May the 16th. She was 18 years old. We moved from Western Australia to South Australia together.

It's been an awful month without her. I miss her terribly. I've cried every day.

Kami was an extraordinary cat. She had long conversations with me, sent me to bed when I was tired and told me to fuck off when I was annoying. Kami-Bear knew just who she was and what she wanted. Higly intelligent and highly vengeful. She reminded me of Elizabeth I. Such a grumpy willful personality, but she always was there to take care of me when I was sick. She never left my side whenever I was stuck in bed.

Kami is my bestest and oldest friend.

My precious girl. I'll love her forever. <3 <3 <3


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Does anyone have a recipe for a good winter soup? Something I can add rice to?
It needs to be simple - like 'throw everything in pot & come back later' kind of thing.

11th day 11th month 11th hour.
The signing of the armistice.

I go to the service for all the lost horses and dogs that died in WW1. There were hundreds of thousands. 80,000 horses went over from Australia alone, none returned.

I don't go for the soldiers.

The cult of soldiers-are-heroes that has infected society these days revolts me. You're not a hero until you have done something heroic. Going to war because it is a career or a lark or you were offered that or prison doesn't make you a hero. Particularly when it's on the whim of a government that should know better. Every month there's a new rape or violence case at our defence academies. These are the people we're sending out to warzones to protect women and children at risk, the ones no-one is watching out for. How do humans behave when they think they can get away with something, anything, everything? Ignore the propaganda and give kudos where it's due. No-one is automatically a hero. Being a hero is special - these people are the better part of humanity and what we should all be aiming for. That achievement should never be dimished by any propaganda.

A government is like a magician's act.

Any time they're waving their arms in the air shouting "Look what great thing we have done for you!" it's because they don't want you to see what they're really doing. Hiding the bad from your sight. Misdirection.

I don't know why, but I'm constantly surprised at how stupid & gullible Australians are. They seem to have short-term memories. Anything from last year is gone from their minds forever. I keep having this insane hope that they'll wake up, they'll learn, they'll do things differently - but they never do. They believe what they're told by the government & the newspapers. They live out their nothing lives revolving around reality TV & the latest trend.

So, as our country slides into fascism, I feel weary. Our government, under the lie that they're protecting us from terrorism, has implemented new laws that give them more control & us less freedom. Particularly journalists. You know things are going to get bad when the government takes away the 'freedom of the press'.

National IQ tests 5 years ago showed that the average IQ (using Mensa tests) has dropped from 110 to 90 since 1955. People have to stay in school longer, but their capacity for learning is less? How did this happen?

Has technology outstripped humanity's mental ability to evolve? Maybe we should go back to the caves. If we're all so busy fighting to survive we won't have time to play cruel reindeer games.

Bring on ebola.